30-hour ++ tomorrow...

@ beixin: yea... interesting people... that's a nice way to put it, i guess. bored, too.
@ gordon: hollywood... well it's pretty good at churning out the shounen stuff, gotta give it that. action-packed blockbusters and all that. still, does terribly in the shoujo-department though. and it's getting awfully predictable... did those rules come true for the most recent 007-film? i thought it did =]

as those who have been reading the signs might know (or i say "should") one thing that irritates me more than anything else is an indirect and roundabout way of saying something. a rejection can be, and should be done straight. going round and round the bush doesn't soften the impact for me at all. why? because i chose to trust an excuse given, but when i find out the real scenario, how do you think i'd feel? not just left out, much more than that...

papers first... mostly i've forgotten what the rest of the week mentioned but obviously i'll recall today's... it just struck me as quite ironic, that on one hand they're pushing all the way for the yellow ribbon project and stuff, heck there's even reports asking to give the gold medallist guy (sorry, forgot his name) a second chance and must welcome him back into the community and all. no, i'm not saying that's a bad thing, in fact that's a good thing, since this society is one that is rather... unforgiving i could say. then again, a few pages later there's a report about how husband/boyfriend abuse is on the rise and how women should "stand up for themselves", "report it, don't let the situation repeat" and that "it isn't going to get any better with time". wow. so now we're saying nip the bud before it grows into a large problem before allowing time to perhaps, hopefully heal the problem, eh? make up your mind someday...

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a rather good saying went "suitors can always be friends, but friends can never be suitors" (azrael, 2002) believed it for quite some time too... but then on hindsight, which is always 20/20, it seems the reverse isn't true either. for some reason true friends and suitors cannot coexist, in any sense... well i haven't experienced, or seen anything like it anyway >_>. when courting, we stand to lose freindship and campanionship. we all know the awkwardness and stuff of a failed courtship, isn't it? and it's few and far between that i actually meet people who can still talk and interact with "ex-courters " as nothing has happened... i dunno. maybe something is changed?

just one more story before we go. actually thought of all this watching a simple animation, really. this is why i prefer shojo stuff a lot more =] though it sounds weird coming from me lar =P

picture this: a young child a a candy floss stand. he's trying to pick between blue, pink and white as his mother stands behind patiently. he's only allowed to choose one. an agonizing decision for the young kid. a second ticks by... half a minute... one minute... *boom* sound of thunder is heard as the sky opens up and it starts to pour. mom picks up child hurriedly and dashes home. too bad, no cotton candy.

which provoked some thought... the price to pay for indecision may not always be obvious, and it can be delayed for some time. in this case, the young kid didn't get cotton candy. the next time we face such decisions though, the price may be a lot higher than that. then again, rushing headlong into lousy choices isn't wise either. so what is the best solution?

P.S. that scene was quite good, considering the circumstances of the series i'm currently watching. it's some super-entangled web of relations. but let's not go into that...

nothing new... and short jokes

heehee, found a new song to add here. won't add so soon because this one is still ok. i'll prolly change it when i come back from china, since it'll have more relevance then. more details when i change the thing, of course.

think i've figured out why i don't like the normal "hollywood" kinda action shows or horror shows... there's nothing much to learn. at least when you watch drama there's always something about life to pick up...

speaking of hollywood, there are a few rules hollywood films ALWAYS follow. see how many rules you can spot next time you watch these shows =P

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rule #1: in horror movies, the nightwatchman on duty will always be killed within 20 seconds of screentime.

rule #2: washrooms are never used for "relief". instead they are meeting centres for drugs, murders, deals etc etc.

rule #3: the main antagonist will die at least twice. (one in history/flashback but somehow miraculously survives, one in the middle of the movie but is a clever fake, and one real time near the end, which means it's about time to pack up and leave)

rule #4: if a telephone comes into focus, it's going to ring in 5 seconds

rule #5: when a weak woman (your proverbial "damsel in distress") fires a gun, there are three actions that follow (a) drop gun (b) sink to knees/collapse (c) wail

rule #6: when the antagonist flees in a vehicle, there is always a handy unmanned vehicle ripe for the taking in the vicinity, and the owner won't say anything about the protagonist taking it for free.

rule #7: the protagonists always have x-ray eyes,because they can drive through any terrain including busy marketplaces and not have any accidents.

rule #8: nobody can see a person hiding behind the driver's seat, no matter how large he is.

rule #9: when cornered, the antagonist will always climb higher and higher, even though that would only mean that he gets trapped and won't allow him to get away.

rule #10: when in a fight scene, no matter how many bad guys there are, they will only attack one at a time, while the rest of them jump up and down striking poses.

rule #11: no matter how injured the protagonist gets, he will still be up and active, never collapsing.

rule #12: the protagonist can go on and on with his heroic acts no matter how injured he is, but when the main actress treats his wounds he'll grimace in pain like it's gonna kill him.

rule #13: the main actress is almost always a professional in some field (who says you can't combine brains and beauty?)

rule #14: no matter how dire the situation or how often attacks are made, the protagonist couple is never disturbed at night to do what they like.

rule #15: bedsheets and blankets are "L" shaped, allowing the male lead's heavily-muscled body to be exposed while covering the female lead's body parts.

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hmm, if i find more i'll list them here =P

follow-up

thanks for the reply. i was waiting for it so i could do a follow-up =P sorry eh. XD
also, there's been a sudden influx of shojo anime.. wonder why? good for the squeamish type, but for those who are action fans and such will be put right to sleep. lucky i'm not one of those =]

hm, ok, forgetting the things is one of the ways people do it. in fact, it's the most popular way, because well... they are bad... simple. also, forgetting them kinda... erases them from existence, and removes the pain at the same time, does it not?

two things to that though. first, those memories, no matter how much forgotten, will always be with us, somehow, would they not? they might seem forgotten, but sooner or later they're going to catch up with us. and if we can't face them now... are we going to be able to cope with them later?

besides, our memories and whatnot make up us, agree? so burying something and forgetting it, is almost like forgetting or tossing aside a part of ourselves, yes? somehow, that doesn't sound like a very sound thing to do... but then again, we all do that at some point, or more like most of the time, don't we?

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and a quote i just picked up (it's 2am but whatever >_>). who said watching anime was useless? (well it is most of the time, but then why do people watch TV? ^^").
we don't really need to understand eerything about people, not even friends... i might get lynched for this but it's kinda the truth. after all, if you know everything about a person then there's no fun in it anymore. the fun in life comes with the unpredictability, and we try to get along best we can, learnign a little bit about each other all the time. but when everything is known, you find there's nothing more to learn, and interest wanes quickly. why do single-player games have a short life-span? because once you play through the game, there's not much more to do. (although some people i know are mad enough to play the same damn thing over and over again -.-") soooo... don't poke and pry too much, unless you're a psychatrist or something =P

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ok, delivered another late present again... total number of dates i remember now is... 7... well 6 since two people on the same day, but wtv. if i were to be asked why i'm doing something like that and making the effort, answer is simple. i know what it's like to hav that special day forgotten, after it lying dormant for the past 8 years (for me). it's really depressing to know that it's special, but you're the only one who knows it... having someone else remember... well. the thought, and the meaning, counts for a lot.

okies... 2:30 now... got 2 more episodes to watch to finish the series, and got a small report hingy to type before retiring. heh. long days aren't so bad eh .... once you get used to it, that is...

PW in 2 days... ok 1.5 days, really

to all (esp mark) ok i've changed music =P but you prolly need an A in jap to understand it XD. either that or get it translated =P

i've also removed all bans from my tagboard. just to start afresh and to help out some of those ppl whose IP's were remarkebly similar to those removed. like the school IP. so you can post again. but if i see any more trash i'll ban again, no questions asked.

and also got a comment from annong that the stuff here is to "cheem". really? hmm never really thought of it that way. do the rest of the people who read think so thoo? leave a comment or something. also like to know whether it's too deep in language or what. would help in expression and such, would it not?

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i missed the opening premiere of the lastest drama serial. i believe it's called "house of joy" or something like that. no, i don't watch drama serials, but i am interested in the opening and eding episodes. why? they usually dispense a bit about the series during the opener, and they also usually end with a conclusion-thingy for the last episode. not only that, it's got quite and interesting quote here and there, and how to handle certain situations. well missed it, so too bad...

just give an example of what i mean (picked this up from anime "pita-ten" ending)

our lives are made up of memeories, good and bad, happy and sad. some are locked up deep inside, and won't be remembered until something triggers the memory. some are reviewed again and again, a certain scene repeated like a broken record.

should a sad memory be dug up again? or should it be buried, and forgotten? after all, it is all the experiences we've gone through that make us who we are. should we accept the bad memories as they are, keeping them close to heart, or should we bury them deep in our minds, or even pretend it never existed? would you thank the person who reminds you of a particularly bad memory, or would you curse him?

these kind of stuff is what is subtly implanted (well, in my mind, anyway) when the main story was about death and forgetting. afterall, we hardly bring ourselves to face death. it is natural for all of us to pretend it never exists, or that someone who has left us had never existed int he first place. yes, we do pay our respects and all that, but do we still hold those no longer with us (not just death, even those who left overseas, or something) close to our hearts? do you try to remove every memento of someone departed, trying to quash all painful memories related to the person, or do you cherish any and all reminders, displaying it prominently and being proud of it?

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that aside, i've also read the papers quite a bit and was rather inrigued by one of the articles. o wait, before i get to that, did anybody read today's (tuesday's) computer life? there's an interesting report about the effect of blogs. not bad... i wonder if my little page has that kinda effect.. probably not >_>

anyway, ok might just wanna say before i start that this will prolly land me in trouble or something, but i've been thinking about it over a few days and i can't see much that distorts the truth or attacks individuals. so i shall go ahead and post it, even if i do get into hot soup for it.

there was a report 2 days back about how it was getting increasingly difficult to keep people in parliament. and of course this was backed up with documents, blah blah blah, office spaces are more luxurious than parliament offices blah blah blah they get more pay blah blah BLAH. so of course we must offer them more blah blah blah better facilities blah blah blah...

they're missing the point here. no doubt we want talent and stuff in the government, but if we really think about it, i'd rather have people who care about the masses rather than their own self-interest run the country, even if they aren't the creme-de-la-creme of the crop. it's not a matter of people getting poached from the public sector anymore. if these people are willing to get poached, it shows where their priorities lie. and i'm not too sure i want someone whose always looking after himself before others to be looking after me. think about it from that perspective a minute.

of course, if we weren't so focussed on talent and nothing else... but i better not go into that...

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ok, PW presentation in 1.5 days as of now. good luck people... i guess...

catching up...

hey mark. it did scare you? whoops sorry =P yea i was thinking of changing it. looking for a new and good song. maybe another jap one? ehehe. nvm eh.

well yea, i noticed i've got a lot to catch up on. game-wise, i'm lacking in the skill department. MMORPG-wise, i've got to catchup in levels. study-wise, my H3 teacher is hounding after us for the essay already... which i have barely started preparing. sometimes i wish days were... a little longer. there is only so much sleep you can cut back on...

not much has been happening lately. heck i even meet less people now... doesn't matter anymore i guess.

mmph. i'll think of something to write soon. hopefully.