right. a long national day holiday. might as well use the time for something. can't seem to want to study at home at all, but i guess no surprises there...
been thinking quite a bit about an issue or two. and i'm starting to see danger signs glaring out, sometimes subtle, sometimes pretty obvious. hmm. gonna have to come up with a few excuses regarding that situation soon. but i'm kinda lazy at the moment so i'll just continue feigning ignorance =P
hm. right. i wonder. getting rather lazy to input stuff here. not sure whether it's 'cause of that, or nothing much to input. and i continue seeing people's blogs dissolve into oblivion, or abandoned, or simply uttering surfacial gibberish with nothing very interesting to say. well maybe it's interesting to some but gossip isn't my field >.>
i started this page up during a time when blogs were "in", "hot", "trendy" and what not. except i still don't consider myself going with the flow. some people keep diaries, possibly so there's something, or someone, to confide in, or more probably 'cause some things just have to be written down or else it's forgotten. for me, i'd rather look on it as something that i can look back on sometime in the future and go "hey, that's what i thought". how many opportunities like that do we have?
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right. *cough* national day. quite a few portions to this. the school's one was... well i wouldn't be so mean to say that it's a disappointment... i guess it's just... odd. it really looked more like the kind of stuff we used to have for children's day back in primary school, than a full-fledged national day celebration from a JC. then again, it's much better than the usual performance garbage-cun-assembly we usually get, so i guess it's all good. oh, and the annoying announcements didn't really help. don't need to blare the same message every 5 minutes... we heard you the first time.
heck. too bad i spent the better part of those 6 hours in some dank dark classroom trying to be as quiet as possible >.> but that's another story.
the celebration at night... sorry, it was crowded, dark, and i couldn't see much. the J1s complain that they're sitting on the track but that actually gives them a front-row seat. so i'm not sure why they're complaining. of course, that changes when they've got no interest in the proceedings, but i'm sure
everyone wants to see what the performers have painstackingly practised for us, right? of course! was there any doubt?
right. the PM's national day speech is almost the same as every other year. nothing very special, actually. or maybe i just heard too much of the same thing. but the filming location was a nice touch. on top of the main national library branch, overlooking a good chunk of the city. gotta hand it to the location selectors...
ah yes, and the celebration, or parade itself. somehow it just doesn't seem to be as grand as it was before. possibly because the stage was smaller, i guess. not enough space. give and take a bit, i guess. but the water around the stage does allow for a bit more spectacularity for the shows...
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hm, another point to make. i wonder why everyone's so taboo-iest over the issues of gender and sex? it's like every time it's brought up in class there's some form of discomfort or fidgetyness. i mean, all right, some people are uncomfortable talking about sex, god knows why. maybe it's not something you want to shout out in the street, but isn't not knowing about something worse? the best defense is a good offense. it's always better to be in the know about these damn issues than keep avoiding them your whole life. just don't get out and start yelling about them in the street and it should be ok.
while i'm on that, a study was publishedsaying baby boys are now more "expressive" and "relate better to emotions". the proof? they gave pictures of baby girls to adults telling the adults they were boys, and did the opposite with baby boys. they went on to conclude that most adults deemed the boys more "expressive" and thus boys were more expressive than girls. what the heck. Dung for brains, some people (if you'd pardon the language). you've proven nothing except that societical stereotypes are more entrenched than we think. has nobody thought that perhaps, just perhaps, people are saying the buys are expressive because they are
presumed to be girls? and that everyone's just following the stereotype? obviously not =.=
and while i'm on that subject, seems society has placed way too much emphasis on women's rights and stuff. okok, there are SOME countries where the imbalance is pretty obvious, but i think, especially in the developed countries, the scale has been tipped way too much. *cough* before the women's rights activists start hounding after me, it probably warrants a closer look.
if i say the sex laws are unfairly tilted, i don't think anyone would say i'm wrong. just too many examples. heck, even now we separate boys' and girls' dorms not for protection of girls but for the boys! >.> but no, i think i'd mention education this time.
more and more researches keep showing that boys are getting handicapped in school. that they're being outperformed, blah blah blah. genius. go figure. apparently nobody ever took the trouble to find out why though. like doh, if you put a rowdy, hungry-for-action boy into a classroom setting to learn alphabets, words and penmanship that seems to have no use or significance whatsoever, they're obviously NOT gonna have an interest. what's more, once the mindset that school is a bore and is a waste of time. you can kiss dreams of that person doing well in school. let's turn the tables around and say that in grade 1 and 2 (or primary school for us, since most researches are carried out in europe/US) there wasn't the classroom subjects but you're graded on physical development, i.e. you have to run, jump, move about and you'll be graded on that. let's have a look then, who's going to have learning difficulties, eh?
on that note, it can't help but be noticed that the subject of gays and homosexuality is in the newspaper print again. why are those two terms almost synonymous now? isn't there the other side of the coin to homosexuality? you never even hear about lesbianism, do you? i don't think anyone ever wondered why. but there's a good reason for them to focus on gays so much. plus why they bring a myriad of STDs and stuff.
gotta get to the basic first though. everyone knows sexual stimulation is caused by hormones in the body, right? right. just so happens that the hormone respnsible for it in guys is testosterone, the same one for physical violence. what this means is that the sexual urge is usually accompanied by a need either to hurt or for hurt. which is also the reason for the great big BDSM market, but that's another story. it's of interesting note that any sexual urge a woman has listening to a recording of sexual contact is immediately lost if one of the parties involved is hurt, in any way. curiously enough, most women know that, and is reflected as they say they're put off by emotional or physical pain. but here's the interesting bit: they think OTHER women will be aroused in midst of pain. why? i can't understand that bit. perhaps one day someone would explain it to me.
in any case, back on track. also to note is that the sexual drive of most men is at least 20-30 times higher than that of a woman. i think there's something biological in there that dates back to ancient times, since a woman has to carry to baby and stuff... anyway, it's hard fact.
so where does this lead us? that in a normal, heterosexual marriage, the woman usually acts as a sort of "inhibitor", i'm guessing. and well... in gay couplings... no holds barred, plus there's no emotional attachment that comes with women. so i guess there is some truth in them being more promiscious, on the purely biological level.
still, that doesn't give us the right to condemn people or what not. it's not like it's a personal choice or something. think of it as a writing hand. you can be left-handed, right-handed or ambidextrous. it's a kind of inborn thing, right? unless someone wants to tell me s/he actually changed their writing hand by training =.=. So! in your sexual orientation you're either hetero, homo, or bi. same as right, left and ambi. so we might as well be condemning all left-handers, or condemning all who have blue eyes. yea. tell me when that happens so i can get a ticket out.
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to end of the extra-extra long post, i don't have the usual quote. well i do, another innuendo from the MCs over at national day celebrations in school, but i came across something from HML that i thought was better. except that it's a whole story, so this post is just gonna get that bit longer... (slightly adapted, as some parts i thought wasn't as striking)
There was once a girl who was blind. She despised life because of this, and would lament for hours on end. Her boyfriend was the ever caring type, always there for her in times of need, yet he knew that she would not be happy as she could not see. One day, a pair of eyes came to her, and after a lengthy operation, she could see again (okay, i'm not sure if there are
eye transplants, but for story's sake let's assume there is). the first person to be there was, of course, her ever faithful boyfriend, whom was happy for her. alas, she realized with a shock that he was blind too, and called off the relationship. heartbroken, he took his own life, leaving her with a note.
"Dear, please take care of my eyes."
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question is, if you're in that situation, would you do it? don't give the "correct" answer please, answer honestly... i dunno. i think i would have expected the be tossed aside. Human relations are like that. when you're a burden, or of no further use, it's "goodbye" to any relations you have had. your person is only as much as your utility and how much use you could be to others. pessimistic? maybe. but it's the truth.
but even then, i believe i'd still have given up myself for others. life is too short to enjoy on your own. better to spend it making others slightly better off. after all, what's a little cost or pain to you, if you can make others happy?
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A/N: oh yes, another music change. two songs this time, and clearing of the old ones. as always, translated is better for understanding, i think.
