don't rush, don't rush

yea yea i know i haven't been updating for a dang long time. don't push me. nothing much of interest to say these few days anyway, so rather than post nonsensical stuff might as well leave it blank. been busy around anyhow. i should get to revision really sometime soon dammit >.>

will think of something intelligent and long by national day, i hope.

week of farewells

no i'm not talking about any clubs or societies. don't have much attachment theres anyways. although it isn't wrong to say that this is supposedly our last week of involvement with suff like that. SUPPOSEDLY we're supposed to be concentrating on mugging and stuff... but i don't think i'll be doing that anytime soon...

hm, i was thinking more of the tree out there, the one overlooking the basketball courts, the one that can be prominently seen from the library. the one that made headlines about 2 weeks ago and still looks as majestic as ever. damn bureaucracy and their iron-clad will... accidents there happen with a poisson distribution, dammit. i recall a lot of other areas where accidents are MORE frequent and nothing is done.
bzzt. never mind. things don't change anyway. made a last imprint of it in my mind on friday... hopefully they wouldn't have gone to remove it by tomorrow, but chances of that are rather slim.

on a side note i have to change my bed too... not that i've outgrown it or anything (well actually i did, but that was a long time ago...) but 'cause the bed springs are old or something. in any case it sags and stuff and my parents think it's bad for my back. i don't think anything is worse for my back than the way i sit, acutally. but doesn't matter >.>

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living is getting more and more tiring these few days. why? maybe it's because we're studying in a co-ed school now? or something else? anyway i found quite a few striking differences that make life hard...
number one, of course, is that everyone is in for popularity now. don't really know the reason why or something, but in any case that seems to be the situation. popularity didn't seem to be too much of an issue back in sec school. having a group of friends who sits and chat was about enough. now it seems to dictate everything. your social standing, everything. in fact i've seen people go out of their way of doing things just for that sake. and others changed a lot since i knew them. o well. part and parcel in the circle of life, isn't it?

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hmm... it seems a phenomenon i thought i observed much earlier this year is starting again... although maybe this time it wouldn't be as full-blown as before. need more space and time than i have to sort out everything i'm thinking. perhaps i'm being more forward than i thought i was...

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oh yea, got 2 more songs. one is just nice tune and all. the second is something i've been looking for a long time. very nice, lyrics especially. and it applies to some ppl i know too. heh.

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quote of the week (from our J1 jap club chair)

me: "that's some powerful stuff you use on your hair(referring to his spiky hair). what do you use?"
guo zhong: "nothing much la. just makes it wet and hard"
*1 second passes*
*2 seconds pass*
*everyone starts laughing*

calm before the storm...

and storm it will be, when Mr Wong rages as he returns out scripts tomorrow. not looking too forward to it but ah well, what comes will come. hopefully not getting a single-digit score is more than enough for me heh. there's always the next test... and the next... and the next... until wherever it stops. not like it does, anyway. life is one big test.

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just looking at the monday article. memories are powerful things, yet we can't even begin to comprehend it. memories associated with certain things bring about irrational fears, bouts of joy or just uncomprehensible nostalgia. it's really powerful and a little scary at times. how to use or harness this energy though, is rather difficult. in fact most therapy sessions for irrational fears first try to find out your memory, and then try to make you forget it. to that, they shouldn't be called therapy sessions, more like brainwashing sessions. heh.

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pressure's building up already. numerous university applications loom + number of tests and stuff also piling up. oh well, the human spirit is a lot more resilient than any of us think, actually. just like how an egg shell can support the weight of four books. well, since the curse (as noted by yijun) has already been fulfilled this year, i guess that means the rest of us are safe... more or less speaking anyway. when are you safe on earth? heh.

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i'm this close to closing another chapter in my life. and when one closes a chapter, one usually would like to bring something away from it. i brought stuff away from chapters before, but this time i'm kinda at a loss. experience? bad ones. knowledge? let's not go into that. otherwise we wouldn't be in school so i don't count that anyway. people? hah! i think my esteem of the population made a nose-dive since coming in. so in the end what DO i bring away? hmmm i've got another 4 months to think about that, i guess.

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quote of the week:
"no one would miss me" - Roxas, KH2.

should say the same thing myself, i guess. after saying goodbye to all the clubs and stuff i've been having fun in to go back to books. farewell party? mian le ba....