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Monday, August 28, 2006

long break... long update

prolly been wondering where the heck i've been to, eh? nar, just taking a break for promo. somehow i sincerely HOPE it's not going to be the same standard as the CT, or i'll be in deep trouble somewhere down the line. bade goodbye to friends on online flyff. time to concentrate for the next one month or so. especially since i'm like 3 chapters behind in chemistry and 2 chapters behind in math.

wasn't intending to update till wednesday, because that's when i prolly will have more stories to tell after visiting an old teacher of mine. but i have enough as it is and i don't wanna choke up. later you'll take like 3 hours to read it then don't blame me -.-"

all right, the funny stuff first. a small lil quiz, let's have a look at your creativity.

one of the entrance exams in an acclaimed university in China had this essay topic: (translated into english, of course) in as few words as possible, describe and explain romance and its process.
the entry that got a top score had no more than 30 words. let's see if anyone can beat that.

and another thing: let's say you're the CEO of a company. one particular year sales were rather bad and you know that you probably won't be able to give a fat bonus package at the end of the year. but you want to keep your employees happy, because they may skip to another job. what would you do?

ok now back to more serious and melancholy stuff. i should go in a chronological order of when i got these stuff, i guess.

It has been proven time and again that if you give someone or even an animal and explanation of what reality is supposed to be like, and suddenly take it away from them. they are likely to go mad. in fact experiments were done about this. they put a cat in a cage, and there was a button. everytime the cat pressed the button food came into the cage. after a while the cat got used to it. then they took the cat out and starved it for 2 days, after which they put it back in. but this time the cat received an electric shock each time it pressed the button. food was still provided regualrly and in sufficient quantities, but the cat broke. it refused to take any food, it curled up in a corner. basically it exhibited all the signs of a mentally-unstable or mentally-destroyed person.

keeping that in mind, why does the society keep contradicting itself? especially regarding us, the next generation? Take this from me. doesn't just apply to parents. politicians, teachers, whatever. all part of the picture. just one example should be enough to prove my point i'm quite sure you are able to pick out all the other contradictions in daily life. here: we keep being told that a materialistic society is bad, how we should look beyind materialism etc. and in the same issue or even the same speech we would hear success stories, of rich snob buggers standing in their expensive suits in front of a large bungalow or something. and parents and politicians, who would tell you in one breath that there's more to life than materialism, tell you in the next breath that you'll have to fend for yourself and that nobody's going to care about you. heck, they even tell you that to be "successful" we must score the straight As, get a high paying job, get all the signs of wealth etc. wow so consistent eh? and no don't even try to point out hese contradictions. you're just going to get slapped with the usual tirade of "your generation so ungrateful! look at us. we gave you this, we gave you that blah blah blah" i don't deny that. but don't evade my question. like i said, somewhere much earlier, the only viable reason for someone to NOT want to participate in an argument or discussion is because they have no points at all. no point of argument. DUH. why else would you not want to convince someone else?

and i was reading something about miso soup last week, and had a strange thought. isn't miso soup so much similar to our daily life and society in general? can't draw the connection? you're not thinking like an economist. heck you're prolly not even thinking.
see, miso soup is made up of the soup, and many small ingredients. these ingredients usually float somewhere on top of the liquid. they resemble table scraps, nothing much more. just like us. each of us is table scrap, nothing more. don't delude yourself that much. what would removal of you as a person impact on the society? nothing much. prolly a news report that gets smothered over by the next official statement in one week. but work with a group of others and things happen. it's the combination of a lot of different characters, qualities and a lot of other things that make the miso soup. you will never find two identical ingredients in any miso soup. next time you get the urge to taste miso soup, just remember that we ARE the miso soup.

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ok stuff today.. reading the papers. there were a couple of mildly interesting articles. there's one in the life section about how women should eat more. and yes there's some truth in that. particularly to a certain someone who either starves herself during lunch or else eats a plate of fruits and nothing much else. comeon you're damaging your own health, something that can never be replaced. let me draw an analogy here. jap high schoolgirls wear their skirts super-short thinking guy like it, but according to a survey some years back 80% ofthe guys there are more or less not apprciative of it. i don't know what the rationale for starving yourself is, and i'm not going to delude myself saying that it's for the guys, but still, eat more. there's absolutely NO reason to eat as little as all that. i mean of course if you have a waistline the size of say... ne of the pillars in school then obviously you're in dire need of a diet. doesn't matter if you're a guy or girl, you still need a diet. but if you're of standard and HEALTHY weight then don't go starving yourself into the underweight zone. no point. i would love to talk a lot more but i might get lynched by people i know. just read the life section today i think it's page 7. won't go wrong.

and another article, this time in youthink section. as you know i don't have a very high opinion of that section, but something caught my attention today. guess what it is? STDs among teens -.-" sigh a bit too much hype about it, in my opinion. well... i suppose MOST people are sensible enough to take care of themselves... but as the article says... sometimes its hard to judge and the most odd of circumstances sometimes come to haunt us. tought luck, i guess. but it happens. but that's not the point i wanted to bring up. the article just brought up a conversation i had with yannie quite a lot of weeks ago, after bridge session. i can say with all truthfulness that i have an almost solid wall of ice built around my heart, encasing it like a prisoner. breaking that isn't easy, not easy at all. even those i talk to often, won't know my true feelings. basically, i don't open up a lot. most stuff i talk about, you can talk to me for hours and still not know my values, philosophy and stuff. the question is: how did the wall of ice form? ah, good question. i wasn't inborn with it. in fact i was quite open in the lower primary schools. but some... things... happened. if you happen to catch me when i feel comfortable enough to talk about it, then you may hear the tale.

and finally (thanks for keeping with me till the end of this very long post) there was an article in the chinese newspaper. the parents of overseas children were actually willing to camp at the scholol 5 days in advance just to secure a place for their children. i really cannot find a more suitable example of parental love than that. would you be willing to stand in a queue for anyone for 5 days, rain or shine? sleeping on the cold stone floor? sigh i'd done that for someone once. but only two days... i don't really want to talk about that. painful memories.

finally, i shall actually take time to reply to some of the selfish, immature people who posted annonymously on the tagboard. be glad i'm actually taking time and effort to do this. firstly, as i have said thousands of times before and will say again, people who hide behind a mask of annonymity are the lowliest of cowards. did you know the tagboard keeps a tab on IP addresses? swearing, defaming and other net-related offenses are punishable under the Singapore law. i don't really want to go to authorities, but i will if forced.
and anyway, what makes you think that this blog isaround to serve YOUR needs, to let you read what YOU want? you want something like that, go create your own, or go read one of the other 5 million blogs out there. i have absolutely NO obligation to post what YOU want to read. this isn't consumer-based produce, you know.

that's about all the stories i have since the last update. hope it wasn't too overwhelming.

edit: wow, i ran outta bandwidth. apparently too many ppl listening to the music heh. it'll be up again in 12 days, not to worry.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

two days of sleeping at 3:30

i'm pretty surprised that i survived through today, really. heh. not to mention i only got back at like 8:45 because my parents wanted to go out tonight >_> still got H3 econs presentation to do, and not forgetting math assignment and stuff. then there's chem on friday whoa... time is really tight. haven't even bid a farewell to friends online 'cause i'm taking a one-month break just to prepare for promos. okok i know i should have started liek 3 months ago but i'll just do MORE these 30 days then hehe.

got new music. from enya. I like her songs, so melancholic, and sometimes a lil' bit on the sad side, even if i say so myself. turn on the volume slightly, it's quite a lot softer than my last song, and there are some lyrics this time =D. it takes time to load though, be patient =P

ok today GP talk... i thought i was gonna sleep because i was so freakin tired during lunch. didn't even have an appetite to finsih whatever i ordered. damn -.-" well if i fall sick next week then i'll have all the excuse inthe world to stay home and mug eh? ehe.

yawn. going back to do econs. i keep pushing back my stories. ok they may not be as interesting as the GP speaker's, since i AM a "amateur blogger" with "lousy quality posts" but it still provides interesting perspectives. at least i don't steep so low as to use expletives. unlike some people who lurk on the tagboard >_> hope THAT message got through =D

woot i got through two renditionsof the song typing this ahaha. any comments on the picture or anything? or if you know how to post a video can tell me too! =D oh yeah, if anyone has any suggestions for the SFL, either improvements or any activities it should hold pls tell me in person or leave a comment thanks!

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

wow, that's a first


been a long time since anyone doubted my sense of self. you don't know my name? i have no obligation to tell you. probably the only thing i can say here is that i'm the owner of this page, and if you don't know who that is then you probably shouldn't be here. but then again nothing ever gets through those thick skulls of yours, does it? might as well save my breath.

bit tired. well it IS like 2:30 am right now. still got geog to finish. so yeah been keeping rather busy and sleepless XD. didn't really want to post because it's so late but i found a good picture. well a little objectionable, maybe, but still good.

got stories to tell, oh yes, but let's leave it till when i'm thinking straight.

edit: damn, tried to add a video but guess that didn't work out. ah well doesn't matter. not my loss.
P.S. if you want to read the words on the picture above click on it to enlarge.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

why's everyone falling sick?

three people on thursday... 1 teacher on friday and now i heard that 2 more may not come to school tomorrow. comeon ppl, take care of your health a bit more >_> well that coming from me is a bit the... but you get my point.

been such a long time since i've been here. need to wane of flyff big time. gonna be in big trouble with promos if i continue like this >_<

sigh... i see a lot of photos on everyone's blog. and... sigh...
i... kinda... have to admit defeat i guess. some things can't be forced. i'll quietly fulfill the promise i made to my parents and get on and over with it.

but paul, pretty good reflectional piece of work =D didn't know you had it in you. ling yan xiang kan heehee.

not sure... hope i don't have to resort to the "asshole revolution" as descripted by Azrael, but sometimes circumstances kinda WANT me to do just that. dammit wish i could sort out the jangle thoughts running around. not to mention i need a clear head for tomorrow's test. sigh.

and yes, it's time to change the music. by wednesday, after my EoM thingy.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

long marathon day tomorrow =D

well... gotta get good sleep tonight. prolly won't get a proper rest till friday night. woooo wonder what it'll be like playing bridge on almost no sleep at all heheh.

got a couple more stuff, especially philosophical stuff... was wondering whether i should combine it with tomorrow but i guess i'll just post it today.

was watching this video in Jap Club. i must say... i seriously want to know how those people read traditional chinese characters so well... i can read them, most certainly, but it takes me like... about 3 times the time. so something i could read in a glance would probably take me ike 2 seconds. and when subtitles flash across the screen, it usually doesn't stay that long, so i miss out on a lot of stuff. well at least i fared better than benny which didn't understand any part of the plot at all. heh. best question today "are you chinese benny?" heh.

oh yeah there was this cool speech in the movie. we were wondering why none of the university people ever used it in their promotional speeches. i mean seriously. ok it went something like this:

*crowded, noisy hall*
principal tries to get attention but fails absymally, so main character stands up and approaches the podium
"silly, useless fools"
*hall quiets down instantly*
"only fit to be cheated, only fit to be at the bottom of the social ladder"
*most people start shouting, casting angry looks or throwing stuff*
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okok this is gonna be very long. you have to watch the video to understand it, really >_> err anyway the gist of it was that the philosophy of how the society works is this: the smart people, those with authority, set down rules. these rules, obviously, are beneficial to them and no one else. they twist the rules to suit their needs. so the "non-smart" people are only fit to be controlled by these rules, indirectly being controlled by these "rule-setters". i was like "woooah... that is some great philosophy of life O.o" and he rounded up his speech by saying that you can change the social hierarchy by entering university (he was speaking to one of those ghetto schools) take over the position of rule setting, get out of being the dregs of society, stop being used and manipulated by others. whoa... come on, if someone could come up with a speech like that i'll be sure to sign up for that university. unfortunately noone did, though >_> sian...

oh and something funny: someone posted in a forum asking "what is big-hearted and forgiving?" the best reply i read so far (some 83 posts so far only) was "it's when you come home in the evening, find your spouse making love to someone else, take off your hat, say 'sorry for disturbing, please continue' and quietly close the door" hmmmm ooook. someone here is VERY forgiving eh?

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

back from exile =D

yay my dad finally got the internet connection fixed. that's good news. well it's bad news for my studying but i don't really care anyway heheh. was bored stiff over the last few days.

there's something to be said about last-minute announcements... you truly expect people to be awake and receiving mail at 11:23 at night? gee you're lucky i'm sleeping late and check mail often. i know most people out there don't do that. you're gonna get a lot of angry people turning up for a meeting tomorrow that was postponed, i can say that -.-"

apart from that, i don't think there's much else... oh yea they started selling candy floss again. goody! candy floss's never enough. well it's sweet enough, there's one. well i know some people go around thinking i have something wrong with my taste buds because food i like is like super-sweet or super-salty. well maybe it's just personal preference, but i think more likely it's a much higher tolerence level. 'course, if i get some of those funky diet-related diseases later on in life... ah heck.

and whoof wanchee i don't exactly know how to phrase it, but you definitely know how to... yi zen zian xue. as in really see blood >_> either that or you really know how to rub salt in wounds. ow...

hmmm, nothing much else to say today. been a boring day at best. well it'll be funny to see the expression of the people when they learn that meeting's been postponed XD

Monday, August 14, 2006

let's try chaining again

remember (quite) a few posts back where i was trying to make everything flow logically by chaining stuff that were somehow related together? i'll try that again today. it's the simplest way to deal with a great chunk of happenings, and chronological order is kinda old' =D

ok first talk about updating daily. it's kinda getting to be a bore, and diffiuclt too, especially on days where there's nothing much happening and there's nothing much to talk about. Not to mention that now it's even harder because of my downed internet connection >_< been trying to fix it all night and it somehow isn't working. Sue was telling me about how she started TWO posts a day but has now degenrated into once a month. wow, two posts a day... gee i don't think even i can do that kinda thing.

talking about sue, she mentioned something well quite unknown i think. was having a sneezing fit at dinner today, and she was counting my number of sneezes O.o something about "one sneeze means someone's talking behind your back, two sneezes means someone's cursing you, three means someone's in love with you" well... i'd certainly want to know where that info came from. i'd run it through the PW check, posthaste =D

talking about love (i'm on a roll here) just been reading paul's post. sigh. it's a game, is it? some sort of competition, is it? got some relevant points there but got some that made me a little uncomfortable too. sighz. not in any position to talk about those topics, anyway <_<

talking about paul, i was just relating him to a photo on the newspaper on Sunday. tell ya it's freaky how the first person i thought of was paul. the photo in question? sunday times, youth page, the part about people with hot bodies. then there was this body-builder type, full of bulging muscles everywhere (a bit too many muscles, if you ask me -.-") and when i saw the face i was like "hey, that looks so much like paul!" ooooo scary >_<

and speaking of newpaper photos, there was an article, second last page in the sunday times, about hair length and such. and one of the photos i was like "hey, that looks like cassy from the back!" errr ok, maybe i'm seeing things, but seriously that was the first thought i had looking at the photo.

and speaking of cassy, did anyone notice that the Ben&Jerry's which we went to visit her after east coast park came out in the newspapers today? i thought it looked familiar, but couldn't put my finger on it until i asked jason properly. heh semi-photographic memory, there you go =D

and speking more of cassy, today was her farewell party. well it was more like a steamboat party than anything else but it was a lot of fun. especially with sadistic paul poking at the dying crabs, or people getting startled over and over again by the jumping prawns =D and i so wanted to go to the arcade after that but by the time we ended... never mind. is anyone going to send her off on friday? like early morning 4am? well i'm going to. a promise i intend to keep because if i miss it there's not way i'm gonna make up for it.

dang, ran out of links. eh. yeah so i'll stop here. it's plenty long enough as it is anyway. oh yeah, how is the lyricless music? post a comment or something. i might want to change it end of this week or something. back to my favourite song that i still cannot understand fully ahahah.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

exiled... (pt1)

nothing seems to go right this week.
well, at least friday wasn't too bad. well not exactly. still quite indignant over the treatment i got at the SFL. not to mention that the staff weren't even going to LISTEN to my side of the story. well when people are very disturbed they won't listen to other comments. usually i try to keep myself out of such extreme emotional states, but apparently some people can't. well there wasn't much point for me to stick around and argue with irrational person. but i won't take this lying down. i've decided to go back on monday and make her eat her words. see if i don't. well at least i would if the class farewell party isn't gonna be held too early. if it is, i'll make it tuesday but i will go back!

H3, we still didn't do much. oh sure we were set assignments. big chunky assignments too, if i may add. and hell the case studies are so much harder, i really can't believe we're expected to finish within like 50 mins in an exam scenario. it's gonna take me at least 3 hours just to read and digest the extracts, dammit >_> well the odd thing is assignments were given but we still didn't do anything much. i mean nothing much was taught. most of the other H3s (well excusing geog i think) a lot of people dropped out. actually i kinda predicted this because most people were jumping on the bandwagon and i think most were stunned by the difficulty of the H3s. anbd i have a hunch yannie is right too. sooner or later H3 will degenerate back into S paper <_<

and then bridge... well... the new system didn't exactly work out the way we wanted it to. i think i gotta go fine tune it a bit. but it works in theory because i've seen people using it. well... think about it a little more. and then who was teaching us but M herself! XD it was hilarious. "eh, 1nt opening meh *goes to check whiteboard* OOPS too many points *proceeds to rub off a "K"*" and hmmm guess which was the only J2 that left? heheh we left slighly earlier that day. didn't want to be a lightbulb, see XD

and speaking of lightbulbs, someone's in denial. oh PLEASE don't try to cover it up when it's so glaringly obvious and almost everyone who knows you knows what's going on >_> and it's a report of truth, not slandering, neither is it spreading rumours, although the intentions may not have been good. well i'm kinda the wrong person to come and ask questions pertaining to how to relate or communicate to people -.-"

and for the rest of the weekend i was just UBER-BORED. why? simple. my comp conked out. well it's still fully operational and stuff. but the MOST important thing is not funcitonal. what's that? well it's the internet connection! something about the IP address not being found or something. damn. so basically my com is now the equivilant of a vegetable man. no games, no anime, no gmail, no nothing. i had to borrow my dad's work labtop just to type this thing sigh... ARRRGH I WANT MY FLYFF AND 02JAM BACK! if anyone knows how to re-install windows or something tell me fast. i've already backed up everything i need.

arrrgh, i hope nothing else goes wrong this week. nothing else had better. or else.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

back to school tomorrow...

no yannie i didn't say you were the one who was distracted. there were 4 of us playing, remember? and even they said M wasn't playing well that day. >_> but still, some things got to be improved -.-" and you still owe limin her book on 25 conventions =D

whoof, i'm really quite hopeless at HTML. good thing gordon can help me out here. heh. ah decided to post a lyricless music file. saves space and time on the loading, i think. well i hope so at any rate =D tell me what you think of it.

gotta school tomorrow, damn. not to mention H3 econs >_> got lecture essay some more and i don't even know what's gonna be tested >_< errrr well i'll just go in there and impromptu everything if i have to XD. ok, pretty bored now. been playing so much flyff the past two days i think i've kinda lost grip of reality.

i think people, especially the so-called experts and counsellors (disclaimer: the real ones, the psychatrists, NOT the student leaders -.-") are missing the point. they talk about how it's anti-social behaviour sitting in front of the com, or wonder why it is so addicitve. well i personally don't think it's the GAME itself that is addictive. it's the interaction with the people around that makes the game fun. like now, if i go on and don't see anyone i know i'll prolly go by myself for half an hour tops. by then if noone logs in then i go off for the day =D

not been playing bridge for a long time, hope i haven't deproved too much XD.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

wow... that was a long downtime

i don't really know what happened, either my server crashed or summat but really just cannot comeon to the posting page >_> so much for daily updates -.-"

errr hi beixin lol. getting a rather large reader base now XD.

hmmm i never mentioned what i wanted to last post. it's the time of the year where we show support to propaganda. i dunno, somehwhere in P6 i think i stopped giving support or be enthusiastic about the NDP. for some reason i really cannot explain. maybe got bored of the same things happening all the time, or just don't see the point being hyped up about it. well it may be the cause of not celebrating my own birthday since that age, but heh. it kinda rubs off.

and DAMN i missed the national day message. that one gives quite a lot of information, it's handy. WHY did it have to be this morning? damn <_< sigh. not that i think anyone i know would have watched it -.-"

got a lot more stories to share, actually, but let's keep that for a later time =D later i run out of stuff to crap then got problem hehehe.

Sunday, August 06, 2006

it's that time of the year again

since there weren't any legitimate posts, i shouldn't bother to reply. you can use the school coms all you want. let's see how many different IP addresses you can use. and you don't likemy music, don't visit. like i said i'm not doing this for personal glory or reputation or anything. i might be talking to a blank wall and be perfectly fine with it.

ok been playing bridge the past two days >_> errr someone's highly distracted yesterday, don't know why though. got a lot of different theories but heh shouldn't speculate. anyway i was pretty surprised that we (as in me and yannie) played quite ok. heheh only like 4 misakes the entire round, not bad.

did i mention? NUS subway is sooooo MUCH better than the subway in school. and i had like a damn bad impression of subway from the crap they offer in RJ lor. haiz, lucky yannie is a lot more veresed in subway than me XD.

errm, thinking about putting in a song without lyrics but i'll need to upload it >_> bit lazy right now. anyway, next week got national day holidays, so it's all good i guess. hehe.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Finally, done with geog paper

yay, cause for celebrations ahahah no problemo, like i said. as to the quality of the paper, don't ask >_>

and to those who continue to spam on my tagboard, hope you learn lessons. in future i'm not gonna give any mroe warning, just going to ban you straight away.

hope the music isn't too loud. i dunno how to change it's volume.

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ok anyway today was quite bad. worked on the paper until too late last night, so like kept falling asleep today. heh. that's not a good thing. better not happen tomorrow either, later i fall asleep during SPA skilll B then i'll just get owned.

errrr... nothing much else to say, really. oh yeah, the phenomenon of people taking sick leave to finish up their work continues =D well, nothing much to say, i suppose if you can keep on top of academics then it's really your choice. oh yeah talking about keeping up, the chem lectures are going waaaaaaay too fast. we're likea t lecture 14 already. i don't know why they're rushing like that. possibly to make time for revision, but even that doesn't make sense. what's the point of revising something we completely don't understand because you go so fast in lecture that we can't catch anything? sigh...

hmm, no H3 econs tomorrow. that's good i suppose heh. still can't go home early though. go play more bridge lar ahaha.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

class LJ trip... to tekong?

of all places... why tekong? -.- ok i shall talk about that in a minute

ok xava. i'll take you off. wondered why you wanted me to link you in the first place. thought that was odd. just hope i don't see another message asking me to link you back or i'll really get pissed.

um, yeah damn i couldn't get a stable server for the my favourite song, so i'll have to make do with this one. well it's like one of the three songs i listen to in english, so that's quite a rarity =D um... why i like it? um... that one's hard to say... um... i suppose it'l be safe to leave it at that? it's about 3 mins long, so if you wanna linger here to listen to the whole song you're welcome to =D

ok now class trip... eh tekong. eh. couldn't they have picked a better place or something? -.- anyway kinda worried about the BMT. i still need to figure out what they look out for in order to get promoted to OCS. my dad was telling me one thing, Mr Teo another and my cousins another >_> eh, dunno lar. anyway, the tests, i think i can pass basic skills and survival skils no problem. the tough part is in te IPPT (which i have no confidence of taking, much less passing -.-) and the shooting. heh i hope they open the place like 24/7 'cause i'll need a LOT of practice.

and the look on Mr Teo's face was quite priceless. a mixture of "huai nian" and "omg you mean life is so good now??!!" heh funny! and being the absent-minded person he is, he intended to send us answers for tutorial 6, and guess what he sent? the worked solutions! ahhaha it was damn funny. not to mention that some of the solutions were WRONG>_>

eh, subject rep interview feedback session. damn have to go make up for it or something. errrrr will find an opportunity, no worries.

P.S. if someone can point out the name of the song, i'll be much obliged. have been trying to know what's it's real name for a looooong time.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

it was an honest mistake, really

T_T really, i thought that you guys didn't have to do the econs tutorial, including question 4... miscommunication between me and Mr Teo. now the whole class is kinda pissed at me. anything i can do to make up for it?

sigh, got a lot more inspirational stuff to say, but i think today's just not the day for it. maybe another time. if i did put it up today i'll start getting clobbered by people T_T